High in the French Alps,
Alone in the beauty
Of snow covered mountains,
Towering above a clear blue lake,
I walked without seeming purpose,
My mind turned inwards, seeking answers
To unformed questions.
A casual glance across the lake,
Back to the high country
Coincided with a brief but powerful break
In the clouds shrouding the mountain tops.
In a blaze of glory; mountain, valley,
Lake and field glowed
With a beauty that startled
And then enveloped me.
But that shaft of light lived on in me,
And I walked on with purpose,
Intent on finding my way Of sharing the beauty
And importance of that moment.
Graham Forbes © 1990
Have you had a moment like this, a magical coincidence in time that gave you a sense of yourself that was beyond the ordinary and everyday concerns? Did it feel like you were in the right place, at the right time, doing just what you should be doing? Some people think of this as being on soul purpose, and it might be, but why does it not last?
I had my lovely flash of oneness with the universe and walked back to the village in the French Alps with a sense of contentment and love for all. But within an hour I was conscious of feelings of loneliness and disconnection, and no matter what I did or said to myself, I could not retain the former feelings of being at peace with myself and the world.
So does this mean that when I am feeling uneasy and discontented I am off purpose? In someways I think that this is true, but it is also possible that overcoming doubts and fears is part of the purpose of the journey of my life. If I were to consider only the times when life unfolds in a way that I can understand and accept and trust, as being on soul purpose, then I would also have to accept that for more than 90% of my day I am off track, and operating without a sense of higher purpose.
I tend to think that the idea of a soul purpose is given a sense of magical spirituality unrelated to the mundane of every day challenges, but perhaps it is in the way we approach the mundane that we discover the purpose in our lives. For me, I have observed many small moments in my life when I have felt that I had a purpose in being where I was, doing what I was doing, and being how I chose to be at the time. Very few of these moments were grand life changing and earth shattering moments, but they were special to me, and many times I was aware that they were important to others in ways I could not have imagined. I think of these moments as being on soul purpose, and a good day is one in which I have maintained the awareness that I am impacting on other people’s lives with every interaction, and I hope that those interactions carry a sense of acceptance, respect and lightness.
I hope your days have many moments of giving and receiving smiles,